craicen:

for the first time ever zayn is the only one losing his shit while everyone else is indifferent and its because of niall

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lovehktvb:

Are they finally together?

bellatirx:

do you ever like a celebrity so much you actually get jealous when other people say they like them

"Confidence is the only key. I know a lot of people who aren’t traditionally ‘beautiful’ — not symmetrical or perfect-bodied or perfect-skinned. But none of that matters because all that shines through is their confidence, humor, and comfort with themselves. I can’t think of any better representation of beauty than someone who is unafraid to be herself."

Emma Stone  (via tellmefive)
Please excuse my face, but shoutout to two of the most important girls in my life. I feel incredibly blessed to have you two because you’ve seen me at my worst and still manage to be by my side whether physically or mentally, always providing me with that unconditional love. I don’t need to buy myself into a group of friends because I have you guys. ❤️❤️❤ “still here with my day one niggas, so you hear me say, no new friends, no new friends, no new friends, no no.” 🎶

Please excuse my face, but shoutout to two of the most important girls in my life. I feel incredibly blessed to have you two because you’ve seen me at my worst and still manage to be by my side whether physically or mentally, always providing me with that unconditional love. I don’t need to buy myself into a group of friends because I have you guys. ❤️❤️❤ “still here with my day one niggas, so you hear me say, no new friends, no new friends, no new friends, no no.” 🎶


On the run - Paris (09/12)

On the run - Paris (09/12)

09-13-14

I often find myself questioning why do I watch so many Asian dramas when I have so many other priorities that I need to take care of. I usually just brush it off and lie to myself that it’s because I miss the Chinese language as a whole. More of like a homesick feeling. I can’t say that it’s all false because I do miss the feeling of being surrounded by people that I love. But today, I just find myself questioning it again. It’s become more of an excuse to just shut myself off from reality. I become numb. Following the lives of fictional characters is just so much more entertaining than dealing with my emotions. To this day, I can’t say that my college experience has been phenomenal. I found myself spending most of my time being sad and empty than happy. Sure there are moments of spontaneous happiness but it always comes back to emptiness feeling. I don’t think I’ve even went to bed happy more than 5 times. I wonder if there really is anything wrong with me sometimes. I can’t make friends, or actually I can’t make them stay. I know I have social anxiety, and I’m just trying so damn hard to fix it. I just finished rush week for a sorority and I actually thought I had a chance. I made such a big effort being around the girls hoping they will like me. It was hard stepping outside of my comfort zone but I knew I wanted to be a part of this so badly. I just had to put on a brave face. I honestly only slept for probably 3 hours last night because I was so nervous about the phone call telling me whether I got the invitation or not. After they said sorry, you didn’t get an invitation. I honestly didn’t feel anything. And then what did I turn to? Back to my dramas. I couldn’t face the reality. I couldn’t face that I failed once again to be a part of something. 3 hours later and I’m just sitting here writing down my emotions, with no one to turn to. I just feel so alone sometimes. Am I ever gonna find people who will genuinely stay in life? I’m honestly just chugging along each day. Same routines, patiently waiting for the day when I could escape this college life “reality” and go back home. Home is my escape from college. I may not necessarily be happy with my life there either, but at least I can stop thinking how miserable I am here. I just don’t know how to make this feeling stop. I’m in fucking NYC goddammit. I shouldn’t be crying over stupid shit like this. I just really want to be a part of something here that will make me happy, that will make me feel like I have a home away from home.