October 2010
last post of the night
I don’t know, maybe it’s cause today’s his birthday that I feel like the need to write all these thoughts out and cause I’ve been pretty busy lately with homowork, volleyball, and basketball. The way the word basketball looks reminds me of him cause we first started talking because of this sport, and hopefully, this basketball season, it will change from what we are now...
“I won’t see his name under facebook’s birthday list for another...”
I wanted to ask for a hug.
I find myself thinking about a lot of things recently. Regretting everything that I’ve done or what that I haven’t done. What if. What if when he said good morning with that half smile of his, I could have asked for a hug. He might have joked and said no, but I know that he will. Just because I know him like that. Of course, I know like I am right now, I will start crying and of course...
It's his birthday.
Never will forgive myself for this day, November 30th Five months ago, I would have never imagined today being like this. Five months ago, four months ago, three months ago, two and a half months ago. I don’t know exactly what I imagined back then but it was a hell lot better than what I’ve been through today. Five months ago, I imagined today a beautiful day where I would be with him...
September 2010
You Shall Be Free
I will not hold you by restraining hands Nor yet by tears that silently accuse. You shall be free—like waters on the strands That come, and go, and tarry, as they choose. I will not speak of days sweet to remember, Of lanes we trod through April sun and shower, Of twilight trysts through early-starred November, Prolonged each twilight by an evening hour— No, not a word to hint of that or this,...
Saturday, September 25
Okay. So I’m back from our class camping trip to Point Bonita in Marin Headlands. I was tired as fuck basically the whole trip cause I didn’t get much sleep. The trip was aiight for the most part. I kind of liked last year’s trip better because it was at the end of the year, and we all knew each other pretty well, so we got along and it was drama free too. Also, we felt closer...
Life is good at the moment :)
I first created my tumblr to express my feelings cause I was feeling so down. But now, I got everything sort out, and right now, my life is going pretty well :)
dropped honors algebra 2, and now i am so relieved!
got my panda hat today :D
got an awesome tshirt and earrings at the fair today (;
finished part of my anthology project
figured out about my status :D
and now we’re starting...
“Okay, I gotta stop stalking on facebook cause whenever I do his picture always...”
So Far
It’s been a long time… 3 weeks of school DOWN. 3 weeks of honors algebra 2, and now I’m done. Going back into choir maaang. 3 weeks of volleyball = amazing so far. gotta love my girls cause they are the best that has ever happened to me. 2 weeks on confusion, 1 week of depressing. inside. Fuck love. He doesn’t know I’m hurting inside. I make it seem like its okay, and...
aarondaddy asked: wtf bitch you said tumblr was gay -.-
I am getting followers -__-
I made this tumblr actually for a place to write all the thoughts. I think it’s better to put it down in words than stuck in my head. This was actually suppose to be for my eyes only, so for all you followers, im not gonna delete you but please be open minded and don’t bullshit about this.
Thank youu, I appreciate it :)
“I am in the state of growing up.”
just not in a mood
So… I’m sick :( ugh, well at least I’m better than last night. Hmmm… so I wanted to write here yesterday but cause I was super tired && sick after the game last night, I basically just screwed my homework and went to bed. So it was a pretty nice start to the game actually. On the first game, I aced the last point which was kind of exciting cause I didn’t know...
September 6th
Okay, so today has been a pretty boring day since I haven’t done any homework at all this whole weekend, which means now I have to cram 5 different assignments together in one day while my mom and sister are waiting for me right now to finish up so we can go shopping together. I am soooo broke xP . it’s not even funny. So right now I am doing my poetry essay which is taking forever...
I Miss My Aim High Class of 2009
and this is Nate...
“so I’m going to write him a letter .”
“If you’re too busy to call me, I’ll understand. If you dont have time to check...”
“and i’m still here waiting for his texts .”
first week DOWN .
I just wanted to start of today’s post about how the first week of school has been . first day of school.. hmm it was aiight. this week has been pretty boring if you ask me. had vball practice everyday and I was all excited cause i thought i might have a chance to get onto varsity, but also play on jv. but i was wrong. i didn’t make it onto varsity but it’s okay because this way,...
