It is very attractive and appealing when a guy can man up and share his feelings. Even if the feelings are mutual with the other person or not, they can open up and say how they really feel without having to put up a front. It shows confidence. And what’s a man without confidence, right?
Who actually thought that the last few days of my summer would actually be like this? I’m basically living at my grandmas cause then it’ll be easier for me to get to volleyball practice and to start preparing my next 2 years here. No one is ever home cause everybody’s in China. I try to find food in the house, but there is nothing but cup noodles. I have to depend myself on everything now, including bussing to and from practices and games since I don’t wanna depend on my dad anymore. I don’t want him to have to do anything with my life anymore. I’m stuck like every single hour besides volleyball in this room either doing spanish homework, finishing summer reading, or sleeping. I’m pretty much trapped in here for I don’t even know how long. So this is how my summer 2011 is gonna end huh?
Talking to you makes my entire day. I might be having the worst day of my life but seeing a text from you makes me smile instantly. You don’t have to be comforting me or sweet-talking me. It could just be talking about your day, and it just makes me all that much happier. Thanks for always being there for me these two months. I’ll miss you so much when you go off to college next month. :(
I was in a good mood this morning. Getting ready for picture day and all. So my dad was supposed to drive me to school but thought he was driving me to the gym. I told him that he missed an exit so he u-turned. Then i told him that its illegal to turn left there cus it said no left turn. Then he fucking scowls at me and said i dont fucking respect him as a dad? I fucking do. Out of my mom and my sister, i gave him the most respect. I am the one who spends the most fucking time with him and actually tells him stuff about whats going on in the family. How dare you say that to me when clearly if i dont respect you, why the fuck would i be here? Why the fuck would i even warn u about the sign. I’ll go right on ahead and let u get caught by the police. From right now on, i will not give a fuck about you anymore. I dont wanna have anything to do with you. Thanks for ruining picture day dad.
First day of varsity practice today :) It went suprisingly well too! They announced the teams yesterday and when they called my name for varsity, like I wasn’t too suprised or shocked. Idk what I was feeling. LOL. But kinda scared I guess? It was my first time being picked for varsity in the beginning of the season. But the practice today changed everything. We all learned our positions and stuff and I got some pretty good digs too! But I’m still kinda nervous for our first pre season game tomorrow against Convent tho! So orientation tomorrow at 10 and then go out and eat with some girls. Then the game. LOL. it’s gonna be an interesting day :) I really wanna sleep now and look all pretty for picture day tomorrow but I’ve been dragging out my summer homework for so long, I really needa get my head straight and finish this before school starts. D:
But I still do. I still look through past messages and wonder what the hell happened to you. But it’s fine. I understand people go their separate ways. It’s just sad thinking “what if we happened?”. It would have definitely been something amazing.
Not in a fucking mood tho. I had volleyball practice today and it was like the last day of tryouts and theyre gonna decide the teams tomorrow. I was fucking terrible. I normally dont think i do that bad but today was just flatout awful. Ive never felt so mad at myself for sports. I think im alright at volleyball but todays practice just made me realize i play like shit. Ughhhh. I fucking pissed. Like no joke. Ughhh fuuuuck.
I find it super adorable when guys sing. They don’t need the most beautiful voice ever. They could have no talent for all I care. I just love when boys show their feelings by singing. It shows me that they are somebody, somebody with feelings. Not those rap songs, but those genuine songs that has so much meaning in their lyrics. Boys usually hide their singing until they’re alone, but they shouldn’t. Girls love it when boys sing. It doesn’t even have to be in front of us. A little quiet humming or singing in the car is perfectly fine. I don’t even have to understand what you’re singing, but it’s always the voice that captivates me. It always puts a smile on my face when I hear boys sing. It’s always quiet, but it’s cute. :)