So unmotivated now. Hate how it’s sunday, and another fucking week of school already. Been in such a bad mood since yesterday night after I found out my fucking GPA dropped again. It’s just like I’m used to it already. Mom is so pissed and disappointed in me. I’m disappointed in me too but she just doesn’t understand that I AM trying. The only reason I’m trying is because of her. I know whatever college I end up, then it’s meant to be. I’m trying to get to a good school so she could be proud of me. I hate how parents play such a big role in this. I don’t know, I’m just scared. Big suprise huh? -__- Just so tired and at this point, all I want to do is just fuck it. I keep pushing this away until it’s necessary, but I know that it’s bad. I don’t know. School is always just gonna get tougher and it’s a fucking pain in the ass. Fuck my life though.
Haven’t updated in sooo long tho! I always think about what I’m gonna write on my Tumblr every night, but still I get so tired to write it. Blegh. Well let’s try summarizing my three weeks! LOL.
tried Purple Kow with Shannon, and was late to SMART CAP. Phong was there tho :)
SAT prep classes officially started on Monday.
went to Teaway and Moraga Stairs with Kelvin before SAT class
Shannon’s birthday picnic at the park
hotpot for chinese new years eve and 49’s game! It was such a nice night. I haven’t felt this family vibe in a long time!
read some old convos, had me blushing and laughing all over again! :)
$461 this chinese new year
GAAAH. I’m positive there were a lot more I wanted to include, but I forgot! FUCCCK. But basically no homework tonight tho! Made chocolate chip peppermint cookies for my botony project, finished my research paper, did my presentation, no math or spanish homework. Hella set tho. LOL. Botony final tmr tho, but me review sheet is done! Yeeee boyyyy! Burritos and shopping tomorrow :) Happy happy though. Well at least before I get my grades cus some people already got theirs, and I’m hela scared now tho. FUCK.
SPRING BREAK NEEDS TO BE HERE THOUGH. I’m more than ready to go spend some fam time at Vegas and then to UCLA to see Vivian and Randy though! We’re gonna have lunch and they’re gonna show me around caampus. I am so fucking stoked!!!!!!! V(^__^)V
When you brought Valentine’s Day cards for the whole class, no one was left out. Even if you didn’t like some people in your class, you still had one for them. Nowadays, if you don’t have a Valentine or you’re single, Valentine’s Day is gonna suck. You’re gonna be surrounded by couples being all cute & shit and you won’t be receiving anything.
“You gradually get over the pain. It doesn’t go away, not for a long time, but it becomes easier to live with. One morning you wake up and he’s not the first thing on your mind.”—Unknown (via privatism)